mom's gone to the hospital with dad,

leaving the 2nd one in charge of the house,

and here i am worrying the outcome of her health and her injury,

i thought he's wise enough to take care of things while they're away...

but things turn out the way i would expect years back..

awaken by loud blasts of stereo,

pisses me off

smokes,chips,drinks all over the place.

and to make things worst his girlfriend is in the room sleeping..

now im missing baby awful much..

and i know its just a feeling that i would feel on daily basis,

but today.....

was something different..

so much different

just have to monitor my angels at home(dayah&hanis)

somehow deep down i know i love my sisters,

although i dont show it,

whenever they cried,

i'll get pissed for sure.

and i do blame myself  for making them cry at times.