raziel hafiz

the fact is i didnt change, you did

2011-04-21T13:27:00.000+08:00

i don't see the need in saying what i felt towards anyone anymore,well don't blame me for not doing it, i tried,it use to be meaningful but i guess nowadays,it didn't mean anything to you anymore...

2010-08-14T15:03:00.000+08:00

buke la cepat

i want to meet baby!

bie imy!

2010-08-14T14:13:00.000+08:00

money makes the world go round.

i use to feel that this particular phrase is wrong,

like always im proven wrong..

when you're broke you are just as good as nothing..

worthless useless low life

well i suppose it might be the surroundings making me feel that way

nevertheless im happy:)

cheers..!

2010-08-07T01:14:00.001+08:00

it hurts to just know that you're not in safe hands and you're sick and i just cant do anything about it
it saddens me to see you not using things that i buy
it weakens me to know that you're not fine while im not ard
it threatens me when theres other guys ard you

this shows how useless and insecure i can be but nevertheless i love you wholeheartedly
and i know i am asking much things from you

im sry

i just dont want you to leave

im afraid that day might happen dear

i promise to change..

i love you

2010-05-01T18:03:00.001+08:00

i should replace the 'i' with 'both of us'

imissyou baby...

these songs on my playlist are dedicated to
siti nurshalina binte rosly

2010-05-01T09:48:00.003+08:00

dear god,

the only thing i ask of you is to hold her in your arms,

when im much far away

give us the strength,

and faith to face this challenge,

im deeply in love with siti nurshalina bte rosly;

and i want to make her my wife,

please bond us as one like we are,

till our very last breath

i cant help crying when i read your entries

im sorry to leave you in a position

ive cause you pain

and i know an apology isnt what you seek for

i promise things would be clearer

the stormy clouds will dissapear

and the rays on the sun shun upoun us

i promise

and i promise i'll spend each and every moment when i book out

i miss us

and i know you do too

ily baby

the feeling of you in my arms,

and the feeling of warm kisses from you,

is what im dying for

i love you..

im not gone for long..

2010-04-26T03:14:00.000+08:00

look at my pictures when you're lonely,

i promise to talk to you in your mind

do things that we'll do when you're bored

i promise that i will be at your side playing with you

dream of me each night

and i'll promise to be there when your awake

i love you baby

im gone

but not for long

im always in you're heart

loving you unconditionally

keep the faith strong dear

for your soul and mine are one

i love you baby

you're not alone

im always in your mind heart and soul

2010-04-26T02:59:00.001+08:00

i miss my beloved fiance awful much :(

can i please don't go?please?

2010-04-20T01:19:00.000+08:00

the one i love

the one i care

the love of my heart

the sun of my storms

the one of my dreams

the one which i will wedd

iloveyou baby and thats all i care

i love you baby

i will take it as a test of faith and love syg which i strongly have faith that we wont be shaken

i love you and i trust you

when im gone baby u take good care of yourself

keep up the faith

2010-04-19T00:58:00.000+08:00

i make you angry and hurt yet again...

when would i even say anything right?

i hate this

i hate myself for that

i just feel stupid

im sorry baby:(

2010-04-18T18:55:00.001+08:00

im sorry baby...

im just stressed up

with the time that is ticking up day by day...

im just afraid to voice out

cause when i do

i dont do it well,hell, i dont even do it right

im just worried

im sorry to be self centred

i realise that its me who's being unfair

forgive me.

thats the problem in me.

but i will face that as a challenge to improve myself

and im thankful for your supportiveness

you're my world baby

im sorry

i love you

2010-04-16T01:38:00.000+08:00

baby,can i plz have a polaroid picture?can i?can i?can i?can i?can i?can i?can i?can i?can i?can i?can i?can i?can i?can i?can i?can i?can i?can i?can i?can i?can i?can i?can i?can i?can i?can i?can i?can i?can i?cani?can i?can i?can i?can i?can i?can i?can i?can i?can i?heh.....

i just cant wait...

hey ppl my baby's awesome!

i love you!!!

2010-04-16T01:17:00.000+08:00

i love you baby,thanks for today:)

imissyou awfull much

hah i guess u know me well...

haha

but sebtolnye i nak pack on the 20th ,sbtolnye :)

haha thanks baby i really love and appreciate you dear

you're my precious one syg

i dont have or love anyone else but you

i hate myself to make you mad at times

i know

you're irritated at times

im sry baby

i love you

there no other but you

an oath,a vow, a promise

this i promise you baby,ilove you

2010-04-11T02:09:00.002+08:00

yesterday was history,today is a gift,tomorrow is a mistery..

lets forget all about the past baby

they dont matter anymore

what matters now is only you and me

i dont need anything but a gift,a gift ive got from you,

trust

that is.

im not perfect, i do make mistakes too,i do hurt u at times but infidelity is never in mind

iloveyouvery,very much

i promise to be there,to protect,and to love you baby

this i promise you..

10 things straight from my heart,this is what i want to say to you baby

2010-04-09T01:10:00.001+08:00

1. I miss your smile
2. When you are away, my soul is with you
3. Your are my star glowing in the night
4. You encourage me just by being by my side
5. I miss you
6. I love saying things that make you blush
7. Your smile makes my day
8. i want you by my side all the time
9. i dying for your warm kisses and comfy hugs
10. lets start a family circle of our own?marry me?

2010-04-07T15:51:00.001+08:00

shes the one who owns me

shes the one who pacifies me

shes the one who cares

and

shes the one i love

imy baby

please forgive me for my wrong doings baby

iloveyou

2010-04-04T17:37:00.000+08:00

Megan Fox(i like her just cause shes hot)

Shalina Rosly(my lady)

I will still prefer my lady

imy baby

iloveyousoverymuch!

and thats so darn right

you're the one ive longed for,iloveyou baby

2010-04-01T03:33:00.002+08:00

i've never thought we could be back together after 3 long years being away from each other baby

i know i didnt care back then,things just dont matter to me

but now i do

i need you

i want you

i love you

its a bless to love and to be loved by you dear,
ily,cant promise forever but till the day this eyes closed shut to never open again, thats a promise

here now and then i get jealous cause im just afraid,

im afraid of losing you

im afraid to lose someone precious ive longed for

im changed,

not for me

not for you

not for anyone else

but simply for us

i love you baby

2010-03-30T14:46:00.000+08:00

watched this with baby,

damn its funny

especially at the ":breaking vase scene"

all in all the important thing is to spend time with baby

love you baby:)

2010-03-24T16:19:00.000+08:00

i was bored

suddenly baby and iqa pop out in my mind

sooooo

i went to Y8

castle wars it is

hah!:)

wish you're hear in my arms now

2010-03-24T16:00:00.003+08:00

i miss baby awful much,

get well soon dear

hope to see ya soon

im sorry to irritate you

iloveyousomuch

2010-03-24T01:41:00.002+08:00

i love you baby

its a bless to love and to be loved by you

love

you

siti

nur shalina

bte

rosly

2010-03-24T00:59:00.002+08:00

watch 'my name is khan' with baby just now.

its great.

it really shows how humanity had turn on islam due to the extremist

its a nice movie where it really sends the message whereby not all muslims are terrorist

im proud to be born muslim:)

thanks for the time baby,i love you very very much

three days with them

2010-03-22T16:31:00.003+08:00

three days with them and it totally felt that i was living my dream..

for that few days,

i really felt free,

with baby around,adek,iqa,mummy and cik wan

make me feel useful,wanted and respected

damn wish my family would be this way..

for a sec i thought i was really married to my beloved bini...heh

this feeling is just unspeakable and undescribable

i so love you guys

hope this wouldnt be the last

oh ya

i love you guys

but

i swear i love baby more

heh

dang anum,fatimah,megat terawis

dang anum,iqa,megat terawis

megat and mummy in law

apit & alin

2010-03-20T17:48:00.000+08:00

credits to me for renewing Raziel's blogskin.

yayyyyyy. okay bye.

& i kno he loves my sister very much.

-.-"

okay bye.

ENGAGED!

2010-03-17T03:50:00.002+08:00

i've never felt so honored in my life,to be loved by this particular lady.

her love is simple and deep yet pure

i love her

nothing else matters

just loving her

and she,

is my one and only beloved fiance

i love siti nurshalina bte rosly so very much

IM NINETEEN!

2010-03-07T14:18:00.000+08:00

birthdays

where people be happy when its comes cause it happens only once a year.

it is a day where you would just sit down to just reflect on actions being made on the previous year.

it is not a day to celebrate actually, but to just thank your beloved mother cause of the indulge pain she went through just to make you safe and grow normally.in other words to prepare you to see the light of the world on earth.

i had fun with my brothers at sentosa

and not forgetting with my beloved fiance too

then headed for a pleasant meal with baby,my irritating angels and mom

ok here comes the special part for me

baby spends the time with me from 6th march 10.20 a.m all the way to 7th march 4.34 a.m

i knew shes tired and sick but still she stayed.

sweet huh?

well thats my baby

sweetest as ever

mungkin apit da besar tapi apit tak kan abai kan ape yang apit selalu akan buat.

menyintai mu,shalina =)

thanks people fer making my day happen

iloveyou guys

but i love my baby more heh

i love you baby

2010-03-04T19:49:00.000+08:00

love suffers long and is kind

,love does not envy,

love bears all things,

believes all things and conquer all things

-Elizabeth barrett browning

if you can't love,u cant lead,

let no one who loves be called altogether unhappy.

even love unreturned has its rainbows

-James barrie

2010-02-21T16:10:00.000+08:00

every breath is your love,every heartbeat speaks your name

iloveyou

she's the only one i love

she's my only one

2010-02-20T13:34:00.001+08:00

this song is dedicated to you baby

i love you

you're the answer to my prayers

2010-02-20T11:05:00.000+08:00

APIT BILE NAK BESAR NIE?

THESE ARE THE FEW WORDS THAT I MISS HEARING

although it does reflect me as being childish but it really means alot to me

i just wished she was here and still nagging over things that i've done

but she,she's no longer here

i do miss those times where by she just get me out of trouble with siblings dad om and atok

heh:)

and thanks to my beloved lady that i could really feel the way it was once again

but somehow i feel ashamed

cause like ive said it shows that im being childish

but nvm

iloveyou soo much dear..thanks

2010-02-18T00:38:00.002+08:00

i love you!!

2010-02-18T00:35:00.000+08:00

if you didn't make it that obvious would it even make the small spark into a big flame?

you have to add spice into your phrase ryte?

"oopz" seems to be a simple word.

ouh backspace rosak eh?

ok but anyways i can't have any say in this..

but why even bother to just read other people's posts and assume it's directing to you?

its not all about you,y'know.

you might do things, glorious ones or maybe upsetting ones but what makes you so damn sure that your the only one who does it?

2010-02-14T00:33:00.000+08:00

im just missing baby awful much...

she seems to be busy

i love you baby

i miss you:(

2010-02-11T14:31:00.000+08:00

mom's gone to the hospital with dad,

leaving the 2nd one in charge of the house,

and here i am worrying the outcome of her health and her injury,

i thought he's wise enough to take care of things while they're away...

but things turn out the way i would expect years back..

fuck...

awaken by loud blasts of stereo,

pisses me off

smokes,chips,drinks all over the place.

and to make things worst his girlfriend is in the room sleeping..

fuck fuck fuck!

now im missing baby awful much..

and i know its just a feeling that i would feel on daily basis,

but today.....

was something different..

so much different

damn got to get out of this place, but i cant,

just have to monitor my angels at home(dayah&hanis)

somehow deep down i know i love my sisters,

although i dont show it,

whenever they cried,

i'll get pissed for sure.

and i do blame myself for making them cry at times.

ps:mommy- get well soon

:angels-study hard,pray hard and play hard

:baby:i love and miss you very much,forgive me for all those things i've done

2010-02-10T14:22:00.001+08:00

everybody says we're through

i hope you haven't say it too

                                                                       if we crawl
                                                                till we can walk again
                                                                     then we'll run
                                                        until we're strong enough to jump
                                                                      then we'll fly
                                                                untill there is no end
                                                                       so lets crawl

lets crawl back to love

2010-02-10T14:16:00.000+08:00

i know things i do might hurt at times,

but there u are,

strong as ever,

tolerating me through those tiffs that we had

no doubt im amaze..

and never did i have any intentions to test ur limits baby

i was lost at first i didnt know what to do,

u didnt too,

but at least u were there guiding through,

you're an angel gurl

your're my angel

i love you very much

and i know u do too.

2010-02-10T14:01:00.003+08:00

is it wrong for me to just correct people doing things that are just not right?

is it wrong for me just to let a piece of my mind out?

is it wrong for me to defend you when all they did was disrespect and take advantage of you?

and all i get was those loud blasts from you.

it hurts when i just have to see,

day by day you're being devoured by their ego

it hurts when i just can't do anything

and now im starting to think,is it my responsibility or is it at my own will.

and never did i feel appreciated cause all i get in return was hurtful audio from your throat.

i just think its best to just isolate myself mentally from you "people"

and live to be care free

thanks,

i do like to listen about what had happened,

and how things are linked to my past..
i do

2010-01-29T06:42:00.001+08:00

in any situation,good or bad,can you really see what im seeing?

can you see the points being noticed by me?

can you really understand my intentions even though at times it may be harsh?

no right?

2010-01-29T06:24:00.000+08:00

imissyou.imissyou.imissyou.imissyou.imissyou.imissyou.imissyou.imissyou.

there's nothing that could ever describe the feeling inside when you're just missing that someone right?

i miss you!

lin chipmunk roses,iloveyou! :)

2010-01-23T03:23:00.003+08:00

i i

love sure

my really

baby do!

get it? she's mine!

yada yada yada

2010-01-23T03:11:00.000+08:00

humans just preach what they want to say

and some just do it for the sake of preaching yet some don't

but while preaching,

have they ever consider other people's feelings?

im afraid not>

sometimes being straight is good although it hurts,i gets the message sent clear

but yet again just wait till the tables are turned,

we'll just have to see if the expression u gave while stating will be the same when its on you:)

and when things just don't go as preached,

humans just keep on using sorry,

in some ways its really an apology but another,just for the sake of reasoning their way out

where are those days why by "SORRY" is just the word that makes people stutter when they are really at fault?

here i am yakking about this kind of things yet again

where is the fairness?

where is those times?

where is the consideration?

and where do I stand?

buzz off!

2010-01-21T01:43:00.001+08:00

my imperfections make me,me!

get it?

she loves me for what i am!

get it?

her imperfections make her unique

understand?

she's my everything!

ok u dont need to know why

yes we do fight,and things get messy but still we do love each other

you don't have to know why :)

so fuck off!

stop giving me threats over the phone

muke aku nak goyang?!

lu ble lek suda balls!!!!

n yea nak aku cari aku...

tak sangke org tskde bola mcm kao pandai plak pakai public phone utk call aku eh..

whoever u are...

fuck you but have a nice day ok?

cause im happy

and i want u to smile when my feet's stomping your head ayte :)

those little things that you do

2010-01-16T17:25:00.000+08:00

im just contented with those around me

especially my beloved,siti nurshalina bte rosly

ok tak perlu...haha

love ya!

JOKE OF THE DAY

2010-01-16T17:21:00.001+08:00

ok a china man walks in......
he says

china man: anglo(hello) gwood mauning che(good morning sir)
me: huh?is that some sort of liquor or wine sir?
china man:nooouuu,im giting you(no, im greeting you)
me: ouh good morning,how may i help you?
china man: i wang to buye wang em wang lop pa cah?
me: huh?

china man:em wang lop pa cah?
me: u mean the cough syrup?ni jiom peh pa kao?
china man: noooooooouuuuuuu!em wang lop pa cah!(face turns red n yells at me)
me: pffft!(laugh my ass out)

his face was like a butt being spanked hundreds of times...n when he yells i couldn't even see his fucking eyes!

he then snatch my pen then drew a card with M1 logo in it.
then i understand...

then he says fhang you!(thank you)

i replied yea fuck you

n he fucking smiled!

hahaha

damn...
i just don't get it...
foreigners come here to work,ok i appreciate it

but still its kind of disturbing for some singaporeans cause due to them,

some even got terminated for their slightest mistakes just because of cheap labour willingly done by foreigners,

but cant you just learn to talk properly?

some even worst can't speak or understand what people are talking
damn

fairness

2010-01-16T16:55:00.000+08:00

its always an irony when it comes to fairness
come to think of it,
when we're young,we do things in a manner where by we're told to do so,
as we reach to our teenage life,the road splits leaving us to decide
things that we want to do and were told to do..

in some cases,the splits are actually linking to back to each other.
be it, it links or being dragged to the other side why by you're told to do things that is ok but yet not your interest

we were told that we can make our own decisions of what to do in life
but just to have a correct of executing the decisions being made..

yet again where's the fairness?
MUST i keep on doing things i'm told to do so?
HOW am i suppose continue to follow n do things that im ordered to do so without rebeling?

just tell me the reasons why and i'll just be a slave to words

i guess the only reason i KEEP HEARING was because of what happened in the pass right?

but its good of you guys didn't deny this

but i hate people emphasising about what happen.

well all i can say is rage building in me

it 's just a matter of time

I WANT THINGS TO GO MY WAY FOR ONCE! PLEASE!

FUCK YOU!

for a brother

2010-01-13T15:59:00.002+08:00

things we do in life really do affect people aroundd in a way or another,
be it they're close or not,they do feel the changes,

yet again currencies and cash do blinds people,

rich and poor.

but of all, why bro why?
what am i suppose to do now?
how am i suppose to answer to your folks and mine too?

why did you even do it?

why?

fucking why?

i'm trying to stay calm but its just an empty presence of you is bugging me
damn bro why again?

and i thought we've learnt our mistakes

and never to return back there again...

you could have just told me about things,
like we usually do,
but why?why not now?

now you must be brooding about fairness...

yea that's what we did last time

but are you being fucking fair towards the people around you?!

fuck the rest bro!

your folks cried man!

the thing about life

2010-01-13T04:30:00.000+08:00

the thing of life and people around us is,

we do make mistakes,we do forget about things(sometimes petty stuff and important once too)

and even get caught going against the law..

we're humans,no doubt about that,we do make mistakes.

our imperfections are just a glance of beauty on the surface of the human race.

but we forget,we forget where by our imperfections are the once that defines a unique

yet original attribute in use that most are dying to have in them...

im here making this stand not to have sympathy or respect but plainly acceptance.

no doubt that ego is the enemy of our mind,heart and soul,

yet some might just use ego as an advantage over others.

people keep brooding about what happens and what had happened.

when someone broods,in any kind of intention,it's actually making the stain bigger n wider..

it hurts when you just have to keep quite when you're being "ego-ed" upoun..

keeping quite just as not to let things out of hand...

day by day its dwelling in me...

i do have tantrums

i do have mood swngs

but i just set it aside cause i know,

it was my mistakes back then.

i was young and naive,

i was an ego-centric

but now i did something that im proud of,

i learn to accept

ego is not in me

homosexuals and trannys...totally weird species

2010-01-12T04:59:00.000+08:00

when it comes to this species of homosapiens
i just go blank wondering
what's the thrill of being one and what's the purpose of being one.

some may say that they had enough of getting shits from the opposite gender
leading them to change and to even be the opposite gender

but ain't that stupid?

yes,we're humans we do make mistakes,
we do hurt our loved ones be it we're aware of it or not.

but since its a hatred in them where by they hate the things and the treatment being
given,
then why try to impersonate or even go to a certain extend to go trough sex changes?

well i guess you bunch of people are just following the old saying

"can't beat em',join em'"

i know it's really not an issue to me cause they meant nothing to me,
but on the other hand,they're part of disturbance affecting my life!

it's bugging me!!!!!

and i can bet its not only me....

the reasons of all.

2010-01-11T09:34:00.000+08:00

i was the one who left
i am the one who came back
i was the one who played around
and now i am the one mending my mistakes
but at the same time loving you,unconditionally

you were the one im searching for,
and i was young and naive back then to realise things that i wanted and those i really need.
you did wonders in my life n yet all i did was trouble.

to change from scratch is a miracle,but yet again,it can be done when the mind is focused.

as days goes by, we are the ones realising n they're are the ones discriminating
the facts that people do change,in a good way or another.

love is not what we seek but its just what lies within.

i love her and that's all i need.